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at 12:51 AM

I just feel kinda pissed off a moment ago.
But come to tink of it.
She was right, but i seriously dun need her to tell me abt it.
She want she tell it straight to me!
Dun go ard the circles n then end up being so sarcastic can!
If she's sme one who is close to me i dun mind.
But too bad its YOU!
So jus go care ur fcking own business ok?
I dun fcking care if u guys read tis entry or wad.
Cos u dun seems to be a great fren to me.

If i were to choose my life again..
I wish i choose to go Higher Nitec instead of starting work so earli since my results were not bad.
I realise tat sch is impt.
Maybe i shld say, i wish i choose to study...!
Wad i mean is REALLY study lk fck for my N lvl.
My life changes frm the day i took my N Level results.
Ended up in ITE ( I fcking jus typed POLY instead of ITE! HAHAS! n i realise i type wrongly! wtf..i tink i'm dreaming)

Decided to end my studies after Nitec (which was a fcking wrong choice!)
But i've no choice too!
Who calls me to be born to be a single child, single parent family?
Seeing my mother working, n having difficulties in paying all those fcking bills n expenses makes me really feel lk coming out to work at tat moment.
At that time i dot work was more fun then sch-ing!
But i was totally WRONG!
And i fcking regret it!
I shld have contiune my studies while wrking as a part-timer lk i always do while sch-ing!
No point regretting now..

Wad i can do is look forward as i cant turn back my life..
If i am able to turn back the time, i wish tat..
- My N lvl passes with flying colours! den go O lvl..Poly den blah blah..
- Tat i didnt join VE? Wasted my youth there loh! hahas~
- I didnt quit WingTai in such a rush? (somehow regretted)
- Tat I.S.O nv close down?? (den i might be still wrking as a sales asst der)
- Tat in the past, me n Meixiang didnt leave the warehouse company cos of an act of impulse?

Anyways i DO know whats with my problem okays?
I jus need time! and maybe sme help?
I DUNO!
I Seriously DUNO why!!
U jus have to SHUT ur BLOODY FUCKER MOUTH & STOP GOSSIPPING abt ur OWN FRENS!
U'r jus a BLOODY FAKE PERSON which i noe from the start.
And i still choose to be ur fren cos i didnt want to have enemies.

I guess i'm jus right, we'll nv be close frens.
Cos i noe u too well!
Fcking well enuf to noe hw u actually treat frens..
Its always the same YOU.
Will nv change!

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